helllooo! I d o n ' t k n o w why after soo long, i feel like blogging today.

just feel like sharing my feelings here since not many people know about the existence of my blog.

Recently, i just get to know how does it feels to be heartbroken.

Y E S!

Early this year, I've been "dating" with A.

well, i've been liking this guy, secretly, since the very first time i met him which was 1 year ago.

He's bubbly with great personality, no doubt, he's cute.

One fine day, he message me through Facebook inbox.

Definitely, i felt very very h a p p y.

I love to hear his voice when we were on the phone, I love our msg-ing session coz its just brighten up my day. Despite having such a long day of training at camp, he still sacrifice his rest time just to talk to me.

Day by day, my feelings for him grew.

I've always look forward for FRIDAY. Friday is when he get to book out from camp.

We did went out. I just love that lovely day where we get to spent time together.

eat at my all time fav (ayam penyet ria)& window shop& movie & laughing & he sang, his talkativeness.

One lovely night, he confessed.

No words can describe what i felt at that point of time. It's just beyond words..

We contacted for 4 months near 5.

b e f o r e

things started to change.

He didn't message me like how he did before this.

No more calls

This happened for 1 week or more.

I tried to think positive.

I thought that maybe he's tired coz of the long day training in the forest.

I came out with all sorts of reasons just to calm myself down.

i do not want to think negatively.

On 17 April, which was on Sunday. You text-ed me.

seriously boy, im pleased to receive the msg from you.

B U T

I didn't know that it will be the last time i'll be messaging with you.

if I were to know that its gonna be the last time,

I swear, i do not want the night to end.

Ive waited for your message. I looked at my phone over & over again for one whole week like one stupid girl . Expecting just one simple msg from you. But NONE!!

N O N E

but i still stay calm, thinking that You are tired because of your training

Sooo I decided to message you on the friday. It was a GOOD FRIDAY!

But you didn't reply. so i thought that you are sleeping and will reply my text on the next day which is saturday. but none. Even up till today, None.

& no doubt,boy, i'm still expecting. Hoping for miracle to happen.

On sunday, i get to find out something from your facebook that really broke my heart.

You were contacting with other girl yeah.

*pat on the back*

So all this while, what ive been assuming was true.

For the 1st time in my life, I felt cheated.

I AM THE MOST STUPIDEST GIRL ON EARTH THINKING THAT YOU ARE THE FAITHFUL TYPE BUT HELL, NO!!

my heart Broke into a zillion pieces which is definitely hard to be fixed.

I might be smiling, but only Allah know how i feel.

I break down in the shopping mall, IN PUBLIC.

I felt that half of me was gone.

Days i went through was dull.

I am lucky because my sister was there to console me. thanks sister.

Seriously Boy, I'm just waiting for you to msg me.

I have few questions to clarify with you.

WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU?

WHATTT?!!!

& please do explain, WHY YOU GIVE ME HOPE IF YOU KNOW U WILL BREAK MY HEART IN THE END?

Seriously boy, after Ive got the answer that i want, I will get out from your life.

I HAD NEVER BEEN SO DOWN ALL THIS WHILE! I DIDNT FELT THIS WAY EVEN AFTER I BREAK UP WITH MY EX-es.

Currently, you are missing in action. No news at all.

Dear A, I wish you read this.

I promise, i will try & forget you which i know i can't. Its not easy.

the calls, the message(S), the treat, the day (T.T)

I will get rid of this feelings that I have for you.

I'm sorry if i've hurt you in one way or another.

Thanks for leaving scars in my heart.

If we were meant to be, we'll be together.

If not, all the best in whatever you do.

I'll be fine.

I'll be strong. Stronger than you ever imagine.

helllooo! I d o n ' t k n o w why after soo long, i feel like blogging today.

just feel like sharing my feelings here since not many people know about the existence of my blog.

Recently, i just get to know how does it feels to be heartbroken.

Y E S!

Early this year, I've been "dating" with A.

well, i've been liking this guy, secretly, since the very first time i met him which was 1 year ago.

He's bubbly with great personality, no doubt, he's cute.

One fine day, he message me through Facebook inbox.

Definitely, i felt very very h a p p y.

I love to hear his voice when we were on the phone, I love our msg-ing session coz its just brighten up my day. Despite having such a long day of training at camp, he still sacrifice his rest time just to talk to me.

Day by day, my feelings for him grew.

I've always look forward for FRIDAY. Friday is when he get to book out from camp.

We did went out. I just love that lovely day where we get to spent time together.

eat at my all time fav (ayam penyet ria)& window shop& movie & laughing & he sang, his talkativeness.

One lovely night, he confessed.

No words can describe what i felt at that point of time. It's just beyond words..

We contacted for 4 months near 5.

b e f o r e

things started to change.

He didn't message me like how he did before this.

No more calls

This happened for 1 week or more.

I tried to think positive.

I thought that maybe he's tired coz of the long day training in the forest.

I came out with all sorts of reasons just to calm myself down.

i do not want to think negatively.

On 17 April, which was on Sunday. You text-ed me.

seriously boy, im pleased to receive the msg from you.

B U T

I didn't know that it will be the last time i'll be messaging with you.

if I were to know that its gonna be the last time,

I swear, i do not want the night to end.

Ive waited for your message. I looked at my phone over & over again for one whole week like one stupid girl . Expecting just one simple msg from you. But NONE!!

N O N E

but i still stay calm, thinking that You are tired because of your training

Sooo I decided to message you on the friday. It was a GOOD FRIDAY!

But you didn't reply. so i thought that you are sleeping and will reply my text on the next day which is saturday. but none. Even up till today, None.

& no doubt,boy, i'm still expecting. Hoping for miracle to happen.

On sunday, i get to find out something from your facebook that really broke my heart.

You were contacting with other girl yeah.

*pat on the back*

So all this while, what ive been assuming was true.

For the 1st time in my life, I felt cheated.

I AM THE MOST STUPIDEST GIRL ON EARTH THINKING THAT YOU ARE THE FAITHFUL TYPE BUT HELL, NO!!

my heart Broke into a zillion pieces which is definitely hard to be fixed.

I might be smiling, but only Allah know how i feel.

I break down in the shopping mall, IN PUBLIC.

I felt that half of me was gone.

Days i went through was dull.

I am lucky because my sister was there to console me. thanks sister.

Seriously Boy, I'm just waiting for you to msg me.

I have few questions to clarify with you.

WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU?

WHATTT?!!!

& please do explain, WHY YOU GIVE ME HOPE IF YOU KNOW U WILL BREAK MY HEART IN THE END?

Seriously boy, after Ive got the answer that i want, I will get out from your life.

I HAD NEVER BEEN SO DOWN ALL THIS WHILE! I DIDNT FELT THIS WAY EVEN AFTER I BREAK UP WITH MY EX-es.

Currently, you are missing in action. No news at all.

Dear A, I wish you read this.

I promise, i will try & forget you which i know i can't. Its not easy.

the calls, the message(S), the treat, the day (T.T)

I will get rid of this feelings that I have for you.

I'm sorry if i've hurt you in one way or another.

Thanks for leaving scars in my heart.

If we were meant to be, we'll be together.

If not, all the best in whatever you do.

I'll be fine.

I'll be strong. Stronger than you ever imagine.